Mostly because I thought things would work out and everything I was thinking was being said. To be honest I was uncomfortable talking about it. I wanted to, I just couldn't find the right words... or whatever other excuse I came up with.

But this isn't about me. I want Ram4Life's family to know... that the people who have commented are just the tip of the iceberg.There are hundreds of us who know and respect Ram4Life here that just feel like they don't know what to say. And even when he passed, I didn't say anything despite my heart dropping and getting tears in my eyes.

He was important to us. His contributions and personality made the board better. I rarely post so I don't have interactions with a lot of fans here. But I am still part of the Herd and I follow what is said. I bet for every 1 person who has commented here, there are another 10 or 20 who have remained silent, like me. I wish I had said something earlier and now it's too late. But I think the family should know he was a big part of a large, close community and his presence here will be greatly missed.

I hope there is peace for everyone affected by this loss. Sorry I am not able to express myself better than that. I hope the sentiment can be seen.