Talk about surreal..

So, my ex wife drives to Dallas to say goodbye.. she normally watches the dogs if I go out of town, so I couldn't go to Dallas to say goodbye..

So, this morning she messages me that they're about to shut off the machines, even tho nobody ever officially requested from me to do so.. I just casually mentioned that would be the direction I'd go after discussing it with others.. so, never was asked, never gave the order..

Anyways, she messages me and says I can say goodbye to him through the phone that she'll hold up to his ear.. he's intubated and in a coma.. I thought that'll work and will be easy..

No, it wasnt.. I could barely get through the words.. we haven't talked in ten years and I still could barely get through the words.. I told him I forgave him and he'd always be my brother and I'd always love him as my brother and that I'd see him on the other side..

..and that was it.. they shut the machines off and now we wait.. I thought it wou,d take Seco ds, but it's been several hours.. it could go days.. there could be a miracle and he pulls through.. no telling at this point.. just so weird to say goodbye through the phone because your dog sitter - your ex wife as of March - is there with him and you're stuck at home,,,

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Friendship is like peeing your pants.. Everybody can see it, but only you can feel the warmth..