I'm in hell... read with caution... it will give you shivers.

I have a cousin, a woman, who is.... not sure how to describe her. "Recluse" is the only word I can think of but that can have very negative connotations and she's not troubled, mentally I mean... it's just her choice. Never married, don't think she ever dated... has no friends other than family, (like me), doesn't drive... lives alone.

Since she's been like this her entire life she has no social skills whatsoever. Says whatever comes to her mind, no filter (I kind of like that about her but you have to have broad shoulders).

Then there is me.... not a recluse but share a lot of traits with those who are... I HATE crowds, big cities. I HATE going to Fresno, (big city). SOOOOOO

My cousin calls me... they found a mass on her bladder and they are going to remove it, biopsy it.... today she has a consultation... guess who is taking her.

It gets worse... she wants me to go IN with her during the consultation. I know NOTHING about health issues... I'm no Ramgator. PLUS...

Doctors offices, hospitals, gives me the willy's.

There are 4 of us who sort of rotate in taking my cousin to get groceries, do her taxes, all those thing you do in life... NONE of the others can take her today... or so they tell me.

This is going to be hell... BUT... do I not want to do it? No, I don't... but she's my cousin, she needs help... I will do it and not just because "I have too" but because she's family.

Ok, just after finishing that last sentence my other cousin called me, one of the 4 who helps take her around to get things done... he was 'laughing'. He's an @#$%&.

It's amazing that in this day and age I am the ONLY person that has no drug contact to get an emergency supply of anxiety medication....