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Maybe not Rams related. And I hope the admins leave this post alone for a bit.

It has been a tough year personally for me as most know, ag is not exactly killing it. It was also a tough year as far as actual farming due to late planting and constant rain thru out the summer. Fall harvest really never was a thing as soybeans that are usually combined in September were eventually combined in November. Long story short, corn is still not harvested and cattle are short on hay. It sucks but we will be fine.

The point of this post is frankly to say thank you to all of you that have supported me in my Rams fandom throughout the years. My wife just left me on Dec. 22nd to just literally find her happiness. She is an east coast gal that missed the ocean and missed skiing in Mass., and frankly she missed things I could not give her in North Dakota. I'm happy for her because I believe everyone deserves a chance to be happy. But that leaves me with 4 teenage girls I am ill equipped to handle and frankly a house I was never qualified to run.

I started a post on the offseason changes Staley might bring to the Rams. It was met by not only positive responses but responses of encouragement and gratitude. 21 Dog even noticed I might get a big head from. I did notice, and to be honest, it felt pretty good at a time where, in my personal life, all I am doing is trying to make others happy. It felt pretty damn nice. And my 4 teenage daughters noticed it and said you must be pretty special for all those people to say all those nice things.

Truth is I'm not special, but this board has meant the world for me for years and I would not replace any of you or the moments or memories we have all shared. Its all special to us in our own way. nothing is trivial, and it all matters.

truth in advertising, I have turned down 2 different internet scouting whatevers. Firms, businesses, whatever, frankly because it would A) require me to not focus on the Rams and leave my family to actually go scout in person. And actually C) lose giving my friends my personal info first.

You are all special to me, from ZN whom I have literally taken my divorce out on because I needed someone to me mad at and I knew he could handle it, to Rampage for always keeping me honest to 43 and his danged optimism, and Alyo and his constant scouting. To 21 for grounding me, to the admins for giving me more room then I deserve.

Thank you all, and if its one thing I have learned about my oldest daughters fight with depression its do not be afraid to ask for help, even if you think you are a tough 6' 225 lb. farmer with a great beard and outstanding personality. LOL

So thank you all, I will do my best this offseason to provide the best analysis I can while transitioning to becoming the worlds best single dad, while at the same time tripling my cattle herd (which I actually did) and finding some balance in my life I so desperately need.

This isn't a "feel bad for Deadpool" post, I just want you all to understand i will do as much as I can this offseason for you all, and I do it because I love you all and enjoy it, and I'd feel awful if anyone felt let down.