And throw in any other emotion you want into the mixer because that is me right now.
I hate that I'm in the eastern time zone and have to wait until after 4pm because I'm already a nervous wreck and could barely sleep last night let alone tonight.
I *think* we're on the cusp, but we have had so many false dawns albeit it none like this where it's 4.30am and the first glimmer of the sun is starting to reveal itself on the horizon.
In McVay we trust, but part of me keeps saying, 'But hold on there cowboy, this is way too good to be true. He's 31, he's a nipper (as we say in the UK0, he's 24 years younger than you for goodness sake! How good can he be?'
I don't know.
None of us know.
We see the change is happening and we yearn for it, hope for it, beg for it, but is it real?
None of us truly know.
Last week was a watershed, but from here on in if we keep winning, every game is a watershed.
We are living on the cusp.
We can all look back at the 9ers game in 99 as *the* game, and it was.
But what if we'd have followed that up with 2 losses?
What then?
The Cowboys game will mean nothing if we can't prove the doubters wrong and the believers they were/are right tomorrow.
In and of itself, it was fun, sure. But we'll forget that fun if we don't compound things by beating Seattle.
This *is* the game.
This game is a statement game.
This game shows not just Seattle, but the entire NFL, that we are for REAL.
You have to worry about us. You have to respect us. You have to admire us.
I thought our time was 2, 3 or maybe 4 years away, and who knows, maybe it is.
But we all think, maybe our time is now.
Now isn't winning the Superbowl.
Now is being respected and feared.
Now is teams starting next season thinking, '
we have to deal with the Rams' before next season is even here.
It's our divisional opponents already worrying about next year.
Next year is now...almost.
But now we have to deal with Seattle.
Now we have to make next week even more important than this week and then deal with that too.
This is fun guys.
Smell the roses and enjoy it!
There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
