Have always had, is that those things I am the least good at... or at least believe I could never be good at... are the things that amaze me the most and that I tend to admire the most.
Mathematics is one of those things. In truth I don't know if I could ever understand higher math well because I never pursued it. Very little beyond HS introductions to algebra and geometry.
I hated math in High School.... but then I also hated 'reading' in High School and today it's one of my passions... so who knows?