Its tough for me to lose it..

I hafta give up everything I like and pretty much quit eating.. I have a specific weight I wanna be at for both doing shows and dive trips.. But I haven't do either in 1.5 years, so no real motivation.. I did pump the brakes 2-3 weeks ago.. I haven't gotten on a scale yet, cuz I'm afraid of what it'll say..

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Friendship is like peeing your pants.. Everybody can see it, but only you can feel the warmth..