I mean, you never think something is going to happen.. you always think you'll have time, but from what I've found, you rarely do.. things always happen so fast that its too late.. I spent as much time with Lucie as I could.. Her last month alive she was so sick, but it was right after my neck surgery, so I got to spend all day with her every day and sleep with her at night.. I am so thankful for that..

Then Torrie went down two day after we lost Lucie and I almost hate myself for spending more time with Lucie at th end of her life than with Torrie.. But Torrie survived and I've sent as much time with her over the last 16 months as possible.. but, its never enough..

..and I've gone from really hopeful to totally deflated in the last hour.. She's been drinking water like crazy, but just pee'd and it was almost brown.. Right now she hasn't eaten and won't drink and I'm really starting to think she's not going to make it.. I've fluctuated quite a bit over the last 4-5 days and hopefully this is just a little bad spell, but I'm getting more concerned by the minute..

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Friendship is like peeing your pants.. Everybody can see it, but only you can feel the warmth..