It's always fascinating to me to hear an opinion based in experience rather than just learning.
Not that the latter isn't important, of course it is, but equally so is having 'benn there and done that'.
I must confess that I presumed that there was a link between steroid abuse and a persons attitude/outlook, but what you're talking about sounds a lot like cocaine.
Yeh some people take it and become monumental @#$%&, but they have to be kind of like that to begin with as it only exacerbates peoples flaws.
I wish you the best mate and thanks for adding some personal insight!
There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.